I posted a "Bah! Humbug!" on FuckBuck [=FB].... 
an old friend said he'd send me a toy xmas baby yoda.

I laughed at that and said he best deliver it personally so I could could punch him.... 

That's humour! Something that Facebook do NOT understand! 

Furthermore... It's all computer-driven "algorithm" based ...as Facebook state they do NOT have enough humans to look into the issue!!!!!!! 
Arseholes!

Sometimes just going outside to check the mail is an effort...

  Sometimes the only reason for not ...just dying, is that my flat is too much of a mess for Family to easily tidy up. 
The main reason I don't kill myself... It'd upset family. ...and all that money my EX insisted upon, I still pay... No good topping myself and losing money I could've spent on booze drugs and sex! 
I'm really incoherent of a lot of stuff like "what if I stop paying life insurance??" ...do I get it back? Does it remain, minus charges....? Yeah, nah... fuck. 

The only reason I eat is... I don't want to die slowly of malnutrition. ...and there's something on the horizon... surely!
...And honestly, I like cooking and chewing, but oftentimes... it's a chore and barely worth the effort.  

Smiling benignly, I've got to admit, I don't vomit as much in the morning, nor before I need to go out. Black tea for a few days is easier than going to get milk. I've UHT in "war-stores" and sometimes use that, to rotate stock... but usually I'll wait a day or three... Until I'm ready to go out. 
Sober-enough to go out, is an issue... Every morning, after sleeping too much lately... a new trick, time asleep is time Not-Awake... every morning, in preparedness for work... I'm ready and able... But.... 
Of all the applications, dozens maybe a hundred.... Some say "The position has closed"; nice of you to tell me, thanks. The others... If you're not on a Reducing-Queue or Short List... You'll hear Fuck-All! ...from people who are 'Advertising Agents' ...'Job-search facilitators' ...'Recruiting agents' ...who have NO real function other than to relieve a "Boss" of hiring somebody ... Which I'd've thought would be the job of a real Boss or the best underling... Surely, really? 

 Font size: Largest... Thank me later for ease of reading, with a nice Verdana font... 

(2) Hüsker Dü - Too Far Down - YouTube

I'm down again
And I don't know how to tell you
But maybe this time I can't come back
Because I might be too far down

I wish for real
That I could turn it on and off
Like hot and cold and up and down
Because I'm down again

I'm too far down
I couldn't begin to smile
Because I can't even laugh or cry
Because I just can't do it

If it was so easy to be happy
Why am I so down?
All I can do is sit and wonder if it's going to end
Or if I should just go away forever

When I sit and think
I wish that I just could die
Or let someone else be happy
By setting my own self free

And you don't want the emotion
Because the taste it leaves is for real
But nothing's ever real until it's gone
And I might be too far down

And is this just another thrown away
Or is this the end of the whole stupid road
But you wouldn't want to know how I feel anyway
Because the darkest hole is at the end of the road

I'm down again
And I guess I'm not the only one who dreams
That there's not any way to tell you
Because I might be too far down

That's all a bit shit, really... But true and fucked and how I feel... largely most  of the time.

Message ends.... As you were!

Rants and comments and emotional stuff not to generally be read by ...people.

 I should use this platform as a vent to write and blurt the stuff that I want to SHOUT at the world, publish and be done with... But it never seems to come to mind when I'm in that mood. ...Oddly, as this is exactly the place to rant and rave, as I don't advertise [nor deny] or project the presence of my occasional Blob.... 

It's funny/odd... That I spend more time contemplating How to say something, than actually writing what I want to say. 

I don't post Lots of stuff on another media... as A: I don't want to start an uninformed argument, and B: I don't really want to offend. 
Considering that I'm largely preaching to the converted/perverted... It shouldn't be an issue, but it is... I'd like to create an interesting discussion, or have folk ask "Why do you say..." or "However" ...but that's rarely the case on "social" media. 

CULTURE and ROYAL COMMISSIONS. I've added to the rush of opinions wishing for a Royal Commission into Veterans Suicide...! Not for the ideal that it would change the fact; but for the hope it could alter the Culture of Soldiers feeling so helpless that they would KILL THEMSEVES!

The very idea that a Royal Commission will somehow fix the institutionalised attitude of "You'll be alright Digger... Toughen up!" and "Get up, get going!" and, dare I say "Don't Stop, Don't worry about the wounded! Keep going!!" as taught by the Army [ADF!] ... combined with the method of 'If you report in sick, you are weak and soft.' ... is purely asinine!
When those on Medical Restrictions, in my time ['83-'03] were often thought of as ... somewhere between Broken or Malingerers, is continued... A Royal Commission will change Naught!  

I had a VG digger, my driver, who went on to receive a Distinguished Conduct Medal... that was called "Chitty" because he had a 'chit' for light duties, at one stage... One of many Excellent Soldiers that taught me while I was in charge.

My point... is ...It is very hard to change an opinion, even harder by magnitude, to change a culture! ... Which has been the nature of humans, throughout history.... 

Oh! ...and I should post here more often. 

What say you?