Here's my update...

 I write a diary entry, occasionally... 

It usually takes a week + of thinking and reckoning to "BLURT!" about something... maybe kinky, maybe pissed off at the world... maybe a chance meeting with a favourite Aunt!

I was really drunk the other night. I knew it was coming... things like, thinking "You're a bit pissed, Pete!"
"I know! I said to myself... 
"Careful! Bloke, you could do yourself a mischief!" ...I always seem to go "Cockney Accent" when I feel like "The Bloke who Drank Too much!" which is an Aussie backyard thing... 

I'm not sure why! I drink too much, take drugs until I blank-out... I've done it for a long time. 
...Well! I'm not specifically sure Why!? 

A few events in my upbringing were a bit of a Shock to me... I'll not mention them here. 
They remain... not scars, but events that affected me! 
Memories are vague and hazy and fraught with things I don't remember/want to remember... and rather krap, really... 
But as a consequence, or result... I get drunk, a lot! Sometimes very drunk to the point of waking up in a pool of blood, sometimes to vomit and think "That was a waste of food!"... 
Sad but true! 
I try to moderate often... like now, after the last two recent events close together... and give 'my poor old Liver a bit of a rest' ...but it never lasts long. 

I drink a lot less when I have a bag of Pot. Mary J Juana, the Devils Weed, some Green. But that's another issue with The Law. 
I'm already on an Interlock Device to stop me from Drink Driving ...Bad Lad, Pete! I've blown it a few times now, leading to an extension. 6 months has become 10... Bugger!

No-one is supposed to read this, but I hope some will... as I post the link here and there, at whim. 

That's all for now... Kind of "Dear Diary"! 

Pete... 
Now! I'll add this for accuracy... When I was in the Army, ending a radio message meant "That's all, I have no more to say" ...but it didn't mean 'you can't answer!' 

I still think in Army terms and methods... It was a huge part of My Life! ...I've been out for longer than I was in, and never shook the general attitude, as I felt it. Odd...

Pete, Out.