I am really sad, sorry, lonely and rather dysfunctional at the moment... All the platitudes and caring phone calls are helpful ...but Not! Y'know? 

I feel like I'm losing it... But I know I've got shit under control, mostly... I keep wanting to cry but only have tears well up... happy, sad, glad... cute dog videos, war movies... reminiscences... here it comes! Blurry tears... !! 
WTF?! FFS! 

I don't want help but... It'd be nice!

Ummm, yeah! 

If you read this... you'd know I'm a kinkster... rubbery and kinky... That makes a lot of things harder. 
I'm also what I'd like to term "a nice bloke" and don't want to take advantage of anyone... not even submissives... which is a bit odd and more than a bit shit! ... 

Fuck, eh?! It's life Jim... but not as we know it!