I have a drinking problem... I admit ... I'm now thinking of it as fluid-cide... I recently stopped drinking! Worst 36hrs of my life, cold turkey!

I reckon I need to walk into, or at least phone the local piss-tank [ACSO] (rehab) ...which is not an easy order... 
It's admitting defeat! I'm trying by drinking less, usually... setting small goals, tidying my flat; 2-3 jobs a day, sleeping more... 
...it's not working very well!

I now have a bottle of whiskey, and happier, and writing... 

I care, largely because my siblings would be very upset if I got sick or died... Which is the wrong reason, surely. 

I've done drying-out/rehab before... Twice... they give you drugs to calm you and "replace the booze" ... but then it stops! ...And I'm left feeling just as fucked-up as before but sober and clean! 
Maybe I need  pshrink to go along with it... (They're hard to find and get... even on a DVA Card!) 

Sleep is hard... I only need 5-6 hours! If I go to bed at 2200; I'm awake at 0400... What does one do, on the dole at 0400? ...videos, gaming and "a couple of drinks!" which turns into more and more... of course, being a booze-hound! 
I was gainfully employed and 'in control' until I saw a booze-bus... into the van, with two very nice coppers and lost my licence! ...Bugger! That sucks, but it's you're own fault; Pete! ... 

Shit, eh?